Tummy Tamer

My tummy's been giving me noise for the last few...er...months.

Now I've always had a weak stomach, not for blood or violence ( cutters don't happen to be a PARTICULARLY squeamish lot, if you can believe it) but for stress and food. Stress makes me tense and unable to breathe, and eating when I'm stressed makes me sick.

Still, loyal followers, y'all who know my history know I have to eat. I can't skip eating for a few days just because everything in my system hurts. I can't even stop eating because I'm pissed that I have to eat crappy food to digest my meds, and meds because I'm depressed, and so forth.

To be clear, I love good food.

I also dislike bad food on a deeply personal level.

Somehow I don't think I've lost any weight, but I haven't gone on a scale for the last 6 months, at least. Somehow, having no disposable income, no time to shop and no energy to go out at night, the exact number of pounds ceases to matter.


And still I feel very diminished. Maybe it's because my body won't freaking relax.